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NYPJAMLAH.

Date created: 28th October 2011
Date happened: Sometime in the month of October!
Date written: 28th October 2011

Yay, okay, so I’m updating again! Missing my updates? Haha!

Well, I’m going to like, “close” this blog soon, I guess. Since no one really reads it anyway? And well, yeah, I’m reaching 15k views, so I guess that’s pretty much a big milestone!

At this point of time, I have no idea how many viewer counts I have, so yeah, I shall check it once this gets up!

Anyway, if you’re still even reading this, then well, I guess you kinda know what’s going on in my life already!

…Don’t you!?

Well, anyway, just to write it down for “you” to know, because I know I have been neglecting you for so long already.

I’m sorry. ):.

Listening to “The Script” and “Boyce Avenue” now.

Not something you would want to know, but now you do! Ah ha!

So if you’ve known, October is when NYP Jam opened up for Auditions, and this is mainly what got me motivated to blog, because once the feeling is gone, its gone!

So write it down when it still counts.

IF you guys didn’t know, NYP actually has this, “NYPJam” organized every year, where bands only formed by NYP students can apply, which is not a lot, thus, you can really showcase your talent next year during the 2012 Open House!

Well, I wanted to join, like, SOOOOOOOOOOO bad, that I actually said to myself, “I’m going in. I’m going in, I don’t care what, I’m going in.”

Tomorrow’s the deadline, and guess what, I’m not going.

Ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

The story of my life.

:/

So anyways, the story is this: I could’ve joined, but I lost it.

Okay, that’s the summary, but its something like that:

So I wanted to join, I got someone to join with me already, and she’s like, VERY VERY motivated to go, which made me like, “Whoa, let’s go!” kind-of-thing. But being the ‘oh-so-sociable’ me, I wanted to ask J to join with me, because, well, you know, we go way back. Then it so happens that H was there as well, and thus, I had to ask him to join as well.

Okay, nevermind, having him around, not too bad.

Then this is where it all went downhill, INSTANTLY. I mean, it was already going downhill once H heard it, but still, ya’know. We were 2.5 years CCA mates, and I’m okay with him, but we couldn’t leave the 4th person out, so we got this, ‘situation’, kinda.

S first wasn’t too comfortable with it. J was okay with it. H I didn’t really know. So we dragged on for a week, and then finally like, on Mon, we decided to cancel it.

OH! Before I go there, so let me say first. So we decided like, 2(3?) weeks ago that we wanted to join, but we needed G to come in also, and we decided that he’d join. So the next week GC, we asked him, and okay, no probs. Except one thing.

We had no song.

So G proposed we push back the registration first, which I thought, okay, fine.

Push push, next week [= this week.] came around, and the deadline I THOUGHT was Wed, and so, I like, thought no time already lah, so I discussed with J about it again. And all was well, I mean, we can be direct with each other, and when we went to Jurong Swim that time already he say if continue drag, he don’t think it’s a good idea.

So on Sunday, I was like, ultimately fan nao-ed max. How fan nao? I couldn’t sleep, even though I went to bed at 2, I ended up sleeping at like, 4.45? Or something. Then next day 9am lesson.

-_- max.

Then okay, woke up, discussed abit with J, and we decided not to join, and J helped me to spread about the cancellation, and so it ended like that!

Well, G also didn’t reply. Like, everything also didn’t reply. W/e man, if I’d known sooner, I won’t even make the effort lah. Wahlao. -_-.

So after that, the same day I messaged S about it, and she was like, shocked that we cancelled it, because she really REALLY wanted to join.

Then H MSN-ed me, and also same thing, asked me if the thing really cancelled anot. And sometimes ah, I feel like punching people like that. Do nothing, expect things to get done, then when it doesn’t, YOU COME AND GIVE ME SHOCK FACE WHY GOT NOTHING?!

Nevermind.

So in the end, H contacted S, and now they’re both joining NYP Jam. And I pretty sure Finals are not a problem for them. Honestly.

Well, because S is a tremendously good singer, but she just doesn’t want to show! So I’m not surprised if they really advance to the Finals.

Sigh.

After that day, I really didn’t know what to feel. Its like, you set up something you’d die for, but because of your heart, you’re able to endure the pain of seeing it shatter infront of you, whilst the slacker stole your dreams and ideals away.

Sucks ain’t it?

But ahhhh, I guess that’s just me. I dunno what’s going on there, and not trying to be egoistic, but it kinda sucks that when I had the chance to join, I didn’t but because of fear of upsetting the rest, I asked them to join and in the end, here I am, standing with nothing, while the person who did nothing, gets everything.

Haha, I really can’t explain how much disappointment and, well, I guess you can call it rage?, in me right now. Honestly.

Started with too many groups to join but ended up with none.

I guess this teaches me a lesson:

If you want to get something you really one, F the rest and just go for it. You might never know when your friend would steal it away from you.

Although J really, one type one. He’s the only one who keeps encouraging me to join, even though I know how much he wants to play in a band, and stuff like that. But he just wants to do it like, recreationally.

Awesome friend indeed man.

So, ah well, sitting here as registration ends tomorrow 5pm. Or should I say later, 5pm?

Haha.

8am class tomorrow, and here I am pouring out my sorrows? Or rather, my disappointment in myself.

Sigh.

I just hope that this opens a new door for me. Because I had so many plans after that.

But, oh wells. You can’t have everything in life can you?

Or rather, you can’t have anything in life, can you?

Sigh.

=Kambodia.

P.S. I really have mixed emotions over this. But still, all the way “We’re just friends”!

Its just like having your friend steal away the girl you are courting~

I so pro, I can relate relationships with problem-ships. :D!

1171 words. Yay~